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wazzupz. SO mani things i wish i could tell the world. so mani things i cant say for fear of offending ppl. SO mani things i can sae cuz i not really in the class animore.

basically typing a bit late cuz i din have a bit of mood 2 days ago for it. once again... PMS. dunno why i get such things sumtimes. maybe it's cuz of the fact that i take more than 5 mins to upload ONE pic. juz ended up sulking infront of the comp over the dumbest feelings. Couldn't upload the pics so this post is gonna be a stupendously long one.

Eh. wad is this. class outing no one go. All home work lag ar. cannot make it lah. and i actually spent thursday friday and saturday morning contemplating if we have enuf for at least 20 plus ppl. we over bought things. busted a few walets. worse than the sleepover.. shakzs head*X100. and yes, my house is frickin' deserted. People complain here and there on how hot it is. and i find myself feeling guilty. for?? making the weather hot and for not choosing a better house in primary one. (WOW!) gawd noes y. yichun asked mi " are you pissed like.... 10 times? that day?" lame question to ask. of coz i wun tell you that i am pissed if you asked mi directly. i was pissed at not being a more entertaining host and the fact that veri little ppl turned up.

For people who saw me looking pissed. and think that my parents are unhappy about the bbq then relax. We are your friends! Did anione spread news about my parents being a BIT strict, strict. my parents tot everyone was a bit cold....heh.

we have no evidence of further sianess in the pics. otherwise it would express how pissed i was getting. should have taken a pic of our slow games carnival. ppl were holding cups while playing games.. pr0 lor.

aniway enuf complaining. good pts of the thing. everyone LOOked content. SmileS a plenty.

thaT's all i can sae. din really have time to socialise. was running back and forth from home to bbqpit.. for.. umbrella, soap, chocolate, chips, drinks, butter, lighter, canvas, almost fainted. even if i wanted to talk i kinda felt outta my league or outta place. wish you all din have to tok abt things in hci. leaves mi hanging in la-la land on my own ya noe. Bushed, tired sianed. Even worse was the dying fire. being unequipped for the essentials, we had to borrow 2 fans, half a box of firestarters to start a decent fire. you can compare the pit next to ours' fire and our fire. BIG diff.

left wif 7 people. eating for their lives to help finish food. CMI. once again. Still at least 6 ppl were enjoying the chat abt hci council election videos... better than nothing.

i read the letters. thankz a bunch. Replys to some of them: I am a pessimist. I cant change that. it's better to hurt. than to get hit full force by sumthing and have dreams crushed to a zillion shards. i am not good at guitar. ban1 men2 nong4 fu3. will try to play a song for the class though.

If you think i am sian because i still sulking abt the njc transfer. then you are wrong. i can erase the pain by playing role playing games on the ps2. a game world is juz like to real one. only you nvr get emotionally hurt in the game world. its a sanctuary. it helps mi to forget a grp known as s65 exists. it helps mi forget my mom exists too( thank god) .

I am sian because my face is naturally that sian. i nvr dare to smile too much. too spastic looking. at most a small one. i oni grin when i am too high to think properly. the pictures normally end up... well spastic. basically.

big thanks to the ppl who help start the fire, help cook the food, clean up the bbq pit. a tear of joy for the people who smiled that day. wished i could redo the thing again for a better one. but i guess the next big thing's probably gonna be... a 3 day chalet in month no. 6?

enough talk. pics of t3h day

" I want a holy piece of the sacred bottle to cut my wrist ceremonially too!"

drinking blood from wrists. nah j/k. grape juice.which din taste like it

see jupiter acting ghost?.....

well... hes not acting. where is he aniway. proof of ethereal disappearance

cool ember lightning streaks. testament to t3h yeowlin and t3h jup's prowess at fanning embers into the air. the fire is nice and hot.

trying to kiap yichun's head. SUCCESS in clamping down. proof on the left. michelle is kiap-ping air. hint. yichun's head is ful of ???

this was taken as a sign of happiness over victory in cre8tin fire...

….. may be not
...i feel guilty for taking this.

I have always embraced the rain. But the thunderstorm’s juz too much. So wad if I click wif you. I am nvr as hardworking. That’s where we are different.

Malrhis: till nxt time when i flood the blog wif sadness.